Call after call, sleepless night after sleepless night, tears everywhere… Always being there for numerous of friends and willing to do anything for them, then when you need someone just anyone…
When you’re on the edge, wanting to jump wanting to fall and the only thing that would Allow you to take one step back, is one just one friend to be there for you…
Yet here I am on the edge phone on hand and no friend
When your heart is so certain about someone, but your head and life is so certain that your heart is misguided and needs to reconsider
Life is shit!
Doesn’t matter which way you look at it
It is unfair, ridiculously pointless and not worth living.
What do you get out if it? Nothing because when you die it’s all gone just like that!
All your hard work, all the pain and happiness, all the love you felt and the sacrifices you made. All gone, forgotten about.
So why suffer, why hate it when you can go and everything be forgotten.
All the pain you have caused, all the pain you’ve dealt with, all the lies you’ve made, all the lies told to you, all the love, and the love given to you.
When you’re ready you’ll see that’s the time to go is now
In my Head:
I know its in my head right now and i am probably making it worse,
But i feel huge, i feel like i don’t have control over anything anymore.
I don’t want to leave the house, i don’t want to see anyone,
I want to just lay here, and pretend to be someone I’m not.
I know its in my head, but its so hard to get a hold of